just came back from 85!! haha.... me and jillene each had a bowl of $2 bak chor mee ..then we FINALLY ordered satay from the satay guy... hahahha... i tell you..im so full, and im so gonna put. on. weight.!!! me and jillene reached there first, and ordered our stuff, and kit wing came down after awhile to join us. i was actually feeling alittle down cause i was feeling disappointed.. i was hoping tt i wld be able to meet u-know-who todae. GUEss what..while we were all talking away, when i turned my back,*ta- dah* she appeared!! haha...i was soooooo suprised... i really didnt expect her to be there, cause when i talked to her earlier on, it didnt seem as though we were gonna be meeting. -again...
when i saw _ _ _ _ , i tell u.. i was so happy.. its like come on man... it was a suprise.. i think it was realli sweet of her... u know,after seeing her there with her sitting beside me, it felt so good that all the 'kek-ness' i was feeling just went awae.. yar lor... *sigh* man.. the power of love... hahhahaha
anywae, my dae today was actually 'aye-okae', had plans after i was done with my project in school, but, again.. i got 'pang sey-ded'.. i so have to get used to this!! i am not gonna give myself false hopes anymore..well, at least tt's what i'll try to do... i mean... im afraid i wont be able to take it anymore... i understand tt _ _ _ _'s busy with her stuff, but its just so disappointing... hai... i mean, it's been happening time and time again.. so sad right.. but theres nothing i can do about it ... i dun blame her....i dun wanna... its just tt the feeling of disappointment realli sucks... u know... the pain and hurting feeling that u feel deep down in ur heart..it hurts lor...it realli does...
im really thankful for the friends that i have around me..realli...these people should know who they are... you guys have realli been around when i needed somone to talk to... it realli sweet of u guys to bear with all my whining and crying and fustrations... i sooooooos sooooo sooooo sooooo sooooo appreciate it... thanks babies... i love u guys so much... i think i would have gone mad if i didnt have u guys...
wanna read the poem i wrote last night???
here goes:
"Guess what??
I think Im in love.
But Im not sure,
If I should thank the person up above.
I dont know if Im doing right,
If I were to tell u that
I really need you by my side
I dont really wanna let u know
How much youre really wanted,
Cause theres a fear in me that goes:
"im afraid she taking me for granted."
The fear of getting hurt,
haunts me all night and day,
Cause I know the consequences,
Wont just fade away.
My friends are amazed,
At the rate that Im falling for you,
Only 6 weeks have passed,
and ure no more number 2!
Baby, I do hope you realise
That I really need to feel your lovin,
Cause I am hoping that,
I wont end up as the one youre hurtin"
dont u just think im soooooooo talented???
